I have a strong will to note down every single feelings im going thru now .
I've been kicked out from a person . HOW SAD ?
No, not kicked out. It's never be in his heart before.
Thats the result , falling in love with someone you knew you would never have.
I know, fall in love is never our choice, it's just a chance or your destiny.
These days, i've been missing you like hell.
When i text you, it mean i miss you.
But yet im so stupid, expecting you to treat me like the way i treated you .
Now i realise i was totally insane
I was never in your heart Do I ?
I like everything of you indeed, except the fact that you're not mine.
Remembering the first time we met
I was afraid of you hmm, we have lunch together ...
Well you looks kind but that time we were just totally stranger.
I'll never forget what i felt when i first looked at you.
You smiled and I have butterflies : )
Few days after we seems to be a friend. A friend : )
We met we talked and we joked around.
aha, i smile alot.
IM IN LOVE WITH YOU
unwillingly, i told my heart to stop that feelings but it seems to be so hard.
at last i just accept the fact that i fall in love , Deeply by each sight.
You just simply caught my eye .
And you just simply caught my heart, hun.
I wish i can tell you whats my heart thinking before anyone else does.
I can't lie to myself, even i wish i could, to protect our relation.
Im not a little girl, maybe I am, for you.
You told me im different than others, mature than the others.
But why ? Hmm, I guess im just dreaming : /
Dreaming for a person who seems so perfectly for me .
We had a date . Yea an ordinary date . Anyway just an outing .
That feelings haunt me down again !
Trying to get rid of it im sorry
Sometimes, we can have a simple crush on the person we like
We wont be aware we're falling for them harder than we thought.
I know it's real when i cant stop smiling , silly though ..
Your voice is my favorite sound, your name is my favorite noun .
All which i would never have the chance to own it .
But yet, everything still seems so perfectly to each other.
We talked and played around in a square conversation box.
Smiling infront of the window, smiling inside of my heart .
Deeply , truely .
I remembered you said that I'm special than the others.
You asked me to think why.
And i request for some time to think.
anyway, all these words seems like just a joke, its okay i really understand.
Just playing around hmm ?
Girls can remember the little things guys say, and think about it for the longest time.
Sometimes i really cant put into words the feelings that I have for you.
Feelings this great cant be explain fully
Sometimes, I think of giving up on u.
I wanna know u more but everytime we text,
I get heartbroken knowing I don't have a chance on u : (
Well I just wanted to be the reason of your smile, nothing more.
Don't u know how great it is, when I saw your smile was came from me ?
Okay, that night ...
I lye my head on your " shoulder " .
How wonderful ? It seems like everything in this world are blissful . Nothing's impossible.
I was thinking I'm gona get you one day ...
I know im selfish , wanting you for my own .
Which in-love human doesn't want this ?
There's something about you, you're unlike the rest.
I don't really know what it is, I just feel the way I do.
I fall in love with the most unexpected person in this unexpected time .
I can't help myself hun ... Please forgive me
I wish i could lye on you like this , like you are mine, forever.
If nothing could last forever, would you be my nothing ?
You know, sometimes we're afraid to care too much
because we fear that the other person doesn't care at all.
Just like me and you : /
If i got a chance, I would never show a bit of my love to you.
It seems so wrong, you never talk to me anymore.
I miss those times ...
I still care about you :' (
I guess you already know my feelings for you.
Just wana let u know in this very moment , that I like you !
I dont want to be regret again , I missed a chance .
Now you would never be mine : |
Recently, i was desperately racing with time , trying to knit a muffler for you as a birthday present !
Geeks, i smile each time I knit.
Many scenes rise up in my mind, " what would you say or do when you recieve it ? "
Know what , this is my first time doing this knitting stuffs .
You're lucky, unfortunately I'm not lucky enough .
Im so happy to get the chance to knit the first muffler for you :p
Im excited by that time. Trying hard every single knit . To make sure I do the best for you !
Well HAHA it's a history now.
I decided to keep it myself now, after i get a news from your fren.
A happy news : )
Congrates , you're in a relationship ...
im happy for you , really really : )
I should tell ,
I cried at the very moment i knew this news
Just 2 hours ago from now ...
I heard my heart broken into pieces oh my god :'(
Jessie , accept the fact ok ? Dont expect anything again ! You cant get it ! Stupid lar ._.
by that time I was like
" erhm... haha... i knew this would happen...dear tears pls dont drop... be strong kay ? "
o.o my stupidity come again , haha !
I'm scared as hell to want you .
I'm so regret for what i didnt say when I had the chance.
Totally sad ! sad ! sad !
Start crying , hearts continue to break into pieces.
How can i go on with my knitting stuffs ?
Okay well , I still wish I can present it to you ...
But, I know you're ignoring me, And I dont want your GirlF to misunderstanding u .
I knew she would be so bliss , with you .
Im confused , you are the only reason to this muffler .
Hunn, it will all get better in time : )
I will try my best to get everything back into normal .
I decided to stop showing you the love
No matter how hard I try , you would never get it .
Everything take place in the right time
I don't know what we are.
Sometimes I feel like we're friends,
we're more than friends,
sometimes like i'm just a stranger to you.
Im in Pain ... But i know it's time to be a big girl ! and big girls dont cry
Thank you and Sorry , yabo.
I will really really wish you the best in your way, your life, and your study.
Hey i trusted you, you said you never lie jessie geh ...
So be happy and live your life, always and forever !